i miss dustin.he will miss his b-day with me and that is what hurts me the most is that he is thee or me but were torn apart by the home.he won't be at his house on his b-day .i miss tanner.i want to see him whenever but it is hiding to say the least.having to go to noels and see him.we have dated for more then 2 monthes now and well he is the longest relationship i have had now.and well it makes me wonder who am i to say i love.shoudl i love.i do love tanner .no one sees it no one knows.and everyone is sutpied cause they dont' see how much i like him.hell we love each other.and thinking right now i do want kids wiht tanner not now but later in lie.i couldn't imagine my life wihtout him i would do anythign to please him.i want kids .i don't want to be a lonley not famuos actor or not famous artist.i want to be with you or as long as i have.i know i changed but i changed for you.the only thing i cna't give up is moving to europe.the rest you can change for all you want.i just want us to be together.we have a lot and yet nothign in common.you fav color is lime green.you love twiilers.youy love rock .you have a bb gun and you have well black hair now but you have blonde hair.you love fighting video games.your very loveable and care.you hate peopel crying and you want to hug more then kiss.but kissing to you show love.that is all i have at mind cause i cna't think any more.but tanner i love you a lot .nothing has fased me much ,but i used to thinki would be a famous actor in eruope and i would have everything.but that was when i was alone with no one to care about.now i have you and i can't picture my life any other way.i don't care who disaproves of us dating cause it is my choice and i will stand behide it even throught the yelling cause you mean a lot to me and i couldnt' live wihtout seening you or laughing at yoru funny jokes .i could live without holding your hand.i couldn't live without your smile or that one eye with a splash of red line.i couldnt' live without you hugs or you holding my wasit i couldn't live without you period.!i hope you feel the same as i do cause i fell so hard and i truthully don't want to get back up anymore .life is happy on earth.everytime i kiss you i float my body falls and everythign.i might be tall but i hope you don't get dissapointed and find a hotter chicik who your taller then.i hope you don't want somthign new.cause i dont want anything new i just want you.it is werid saying at the beginning of the year i had thougth everythign was going right and it turned out wrong and now i have you i just want you i dont' want everythign to fall apart.i love you tanner .a lot..
i just think life is great but not it is a werid emoptional mix